Since Timothy was born, I've been feeling like I've been in a rut with my photos. That's no surprise because newborns are time consuming and so is home educating 6 children. All lovely things but it can make picking up my camera difficult. It's worth the effort & I'm never sad when I stop and focus on it though so I decided to shoot another day in the life. To be honest, at first I was disappointed when I culled my images. Disappointed by the zillion shots I missed. Disappointed by the lack of "good" shots. Disappointed I fizzled out & stopped shooting in the early evening.
Then I got thinking why I was disappointed. It's partly because I know where I want to be with my photography and many of these images do not meet that standard. But you know how you get there? Shooting lots and LOTS of photos. And I truly mean LOTS! I also think I was disappointed because I forgot that part of shooting a ditl is excepting the day as it is because I'm documenting real life with no directing. Shooting it and seeing a ditl takes acceptance. Lastly, I think I was disappointed because I did miss a lot of shots- it's just the reality of any ditl, especially if you're that mama who is nursing and home schooling.
I had to wait to edit my photos and something magical happened. I came back with gratitude that I shot that day. Thankfulness that I captured our memories because I want to remember life as it is! And as I remembered these various moments, they made me smile. I have a feeling that my children and future generations will care less that this isn't my "best" work! So, here's me showing up and preserving our memories and learning to be content with what I can do now as I grow.